Day 11

Still clean, my urge is down to a 5 today.  the hardest ones to get rid of is the urge to smoke while i drive and after I have a large ass meal.  The other day I had a steak at D.K .  This was a tough challenge, however I made it through without one puff.

Off to Day 12, Friday 6/15

Day 10

3 days after my 'slip', momentuim continues to grow. my urges appaear to be less in severity down to a 7  on urge tracker.  I may not need to 'slip' again. I don't even ned to use the patch or nicotine gum anymore, I use normal gum...which is way cheaper than nicotine gum. 10 bucks for 20  vs $1.87 for 80...this not only getting easier but cheaper as well.

Off to Day 11

Day 9

2 days after my slip  and my resolve continues to grow.
Gum and  patch work well together
Another day down and another to go.

Day 8

A Day after my 'slip', I recommitted  back to the quit and did not have a strong urge today, I rated it as a 6  and went about my day without a smoke.  I had a 'buyer's remorse' kinda feeling after smoking all day on Sunday.  I believe this one slips is all I'm going to allow from this day forward. Although I recommitted to the quit, I felt like stepping backward by smoking all day.
Perhaps that was the one thing that I needed to strengthen my resolve.

Off to Day 9.

Day 7

And on the 7th Day God rested and Shelley slipped.
Smoked my first cigarette in a week, it still tastes good, as time goes by and I lengthen my slips, it will start taste even worse. (This is the plan) I know I'm re-firing  my nicotine receptors but I believe in this process. I've tried to quit in all different ways. I won't know if this work unless I do it. I've always slipped giving into an urge, let's what happens if I intentionally plan it. I'll allow myself all day to indulge

Day 6

Skipped a day again. I spoke too soon when mentioning that I didn't have any morning urges. Day 5 was probably my peak urge since I quit. I hated the world  this day. Drank lots of liquid..no liquor of course but lots of water and juice.
Day 6 greeted me with a morning urge similar to Day 5. I am hating the world again today. Increased my nicotine gum usage to quell this problem.
To assist the urge fight, I'm allowing myself to eat junk like shakes and ice creams. Surprisingly not putting on weight  considering that EVERYTHING tastes better...even water. AND to combat over-indulging in soda, I've stocked up on flavored carbonated water. I'm not soda free, have allowed myself a fountain drink here and there...One thing at a time..smoking first.

Another day gone by, Day 7 is my scheduled slip. We'll see how that cigarette tastes Sunday morning.

Day 4

My urges remain high at about a 10. However, I find it's getting better, I don't crave for a smoke first thing in the morning. My sense of taste is better, I no longer cough nor do I weeze. I find that accepting the pain makes i easier to dismiss my urges. In the past i'd fight it; but more i fight, the more it fights back and i would cave. 1 cigarette  turned into 2  etc... this would escalate, I'd buy the 1 telling myself that I'd give into the craving just once, but I'd find a way to justify the second pack. Hence my planned 'slip'. Instead of giving in, I scheduled it. My goal is that one day I will no longer stick to this scheduled date as i do in other parts of my life.